Who is in charge?

Meghan slept until 11:20 this morning.  She woke only to the sound of the hammering as her father works to trim out the upstairs rooms – a project that had an intended completion date of about 2005, but hey, life gets in the way sometimes.

We had woken earlier, Felix and I – but not too much earlier.  We had wanted to go to church this morning, but learned a long time ago NEVER to wake Meghan.  She had gone to sleep at 8 PM last night, and if she was still sleeping soundly in her own bed at that hour – well her body was clearly telling us to back off.  We have a lot of respect for her body.  It gets VERY cranky if you don’t listen carefully.

My three girls... resting together.
My three girls… resting together.

But, by 11 – we had become so ingrained in what we were going to do, that it wasn’t too hard to forget that our 9 year old was still sound asleep under her covers.

When she came stumbling out of her room to the sound of the hammer she was dazed but smiling.  After a good morning hug she asked what we had to do today.  When I told her that we were going to stay home all day she leaped into my arms.

Can I read?   Yes…of course.

books

Can I watch some TV?  Sure.

Can I take my shower later, and stay in my PJs? Absolutely.

While part of me was tempted to lecture her about getting up and showered and dressed, I refrained.  Just because I could never bring myself to spend the day in my PJs, doesn’t mean she can’t.

In so many ways Meghan and I are somewhat different, but also a good deal alike.

Our bodies eventually shut down if they are always on the go.  We need our down time.

energizer bunny

Growing up with a sister and a mother who could move like Energizer Bunnies, I always felt a bit odd that I couldn’t keep up.  They still move like that.  And I still need to stop sometimes.

Now, I have a mini -me.  (And my sister has two! :-))

Me and my girl!
Me and my girl!

So when I looked at the April calendar earlier in the month I had had some serious reservations about whether we could pull it off.  For most of the month we were on a 7 day schedule.

Meghan switched schools.

We had PT twice a week, dance class, music class, swim practice, swim meets, test prep, doctor’s appointments….

run-clock

But, we did it.  A small hiccup last week when she started with an ear infection, but a quick run to the pediatrician (after the orthodontist, and before it transformed into a full-blown feverish mess) and we got it under control.

State tests – 6 days of them in the last 2 weeks.  Stress – all of them.  But they are over too.

test prep

Yesterday I pulled out Meghan’s spring clothes.  There wasn’t much we could use.  The sandals from last year were a size 6.  She is a 7.5.  The same was true for the clothes.  We put even less away for the fall.  Nothing really.  But we will cross that bridge then.  Right now she is almost 5 feet tall and every inch of her beautiful inside and out.

No wonder she needs to rest sometimes.  Her body is certainly hurrying its way through its growth.

I spent the entire day at my desk.  I just finished about an hour ago when I began to write.  There were bills to file, papers to sort, letters to write.  There is a letter writing campaign I am working on for a stop sign by my school.

There were some Emails to answer about Isagenix – the nutritional system that is changing my husband’s life.

Isagenix

http://meghanleigh8903.isagenix.com/us/en/landing_toxic.html (check that out here)

There were gifts to order, some lists to make, and I can now just about see the desk calendar, as it is ready to turn to May.

calendar

I probably should have gotten outside to enjoy the beautiful day too, but I guess this was my respite.  I thrive on order and organization.  I showered early – like I always do, but I relaxed by creating order.

You see Mom taught me a long time ago – that the more you look for order in life, the less you will find it.  “You plan – God Laughs.”  And I know she is right.

I really should listen to my Mom...
I really should listen to my Mom…

However, in this world where so many things are so far out of my control – I have a compulsion to control what I can.  I can make sure the floor is clean, and the bills are paid, and the laundry is done.  I can make sure there are always cupcakes for Meghan in the freezer in case there is a party.  I can buy the cards, and order the gifts, and endeavor valiantly to balance my checkbook.

Crazy?  Maybe.  But I take satisfaction and solace in knowing that there are a few precious things left in my life I can control.

The last of a long series of lab tests ordered by my friend Dr. Elice was done Saturday morning.  This is the week where I will find out what 37 vials of blood and 2 24 hour urine tests turned up.  I will ask the 5,000 questions in my mind about endocrine function, and hormone levels, and ratios, and vitamin absorption.  And, no matter how much I try to anticipate the answer, something will knock me flat on my ass.

blood-testing

That is how it goes.  Cowden’s Syndrome keeps us hopping.  And with Meghan there is an immune system deficiency, the chronic viral infections, and so many more things we are yet to figure out.

So – for tonight, the floor is clean, the list is made, the desk is organized.  For tonight I can rest, and gear up for whatever this week has in store.  And somehow, after dance class, and PT, and swim practice, and 2 meets… somehow it will all be OK.

I’m not in charge of this.  It’s in the hands of a power far greater than any of us.

God's got this

I’m only in charge of keeping the fur off the kitchen floor.

 

No more “Toxic” environments

Almost a year ago – in June of 2012 – my husband was introduced to Isagenix, a nutritional program designed to help him shed some unwanted pounds and help him feel better.

You see it had only been a few months since his wife and daughter were diagnosed with Cowden’s Syndrome.  Meghan had had knee surgery (her 4th) in February of 2012.  I had my mastectomy, with the subsequent DCIS diagnosis, in March, and a hysterectomy in May.  By June the stress eating was evident as he just didn’t feel well.  We all needed his energy level to stay high.  There was certainly no time for our anchor in the storm to get sick or run down.

So, with the guidance of a friend – an Isagenix consumer and “pro” herself, we got him started on a 30 day program designed to help cleanse his body of unwanted toxins.  The thirty day program was a breeze for him.  He is one of the most determined people I know when he puts his mind to it.  It wasn’t long into those 30 days when he started finishing the extra vegetables at dinner, and choosing water over soda.  He just FELT better.

The information below is from the Isagenix website.

http://www.isagenix.com/us/en/cleanse_overview.html

Nutritional Cleansing unlocks the miracle of the human body


Nutritional Cleansing increases the health benefits you’ll receive from the ancient health practice of cleansing. The herbs, vitamins and minerals that aid cleansing do two things:

  • Accelerate the removal of impurities from the body.
  • Nourish the body with vital nutrients to rapidly revive health.

A cleansed and revitalized body is stronger, resists illness better, is more efficient and performs at a higher level than one that is filled with impurities. Many people notice an ability to reach and maintain their ideal weight.

So when the thirty days were up, he chose to continue on a maintenance program.  He uses the Isagenix for one or two meals a day,  and snacks.  It fits in with the “on the go” lifestyle of a NYC employee.

And, as he sees fit – he opts to do a “cleanse day” where he drinks a power packed vitamin supplement and lots of water.  He eats very little food.  And he always feels better when he is done.  He knows now that toxins build up in the body, and he knows when  its time to let them go.

10 months later he is down a solid 35 pounds and countless inches.  No fluctuation greater than about 3 pounds.  It is gone for good.  The future is wide open, because as soon as his schooling is over – the exercising will begin again, and the remaining 15  pounds he looks to lose I am confident will melt away.

Father Daughter Dance November 2011
Father Daughter Dance November 2011
Father Daughter Dance January 2013
Father Daughter Dance January 2013

So how does all this have anything to do with “Beating Cowden’s?”

Here’s how I see it.

I haven’t used the Isagenix program, because I have not had a need to lose weight.  But, I have learned so much from reading and watching.

Essential to the program is the release of toxins.

This, I know a lot about from being Meghan’s mom.  From a young age it was evident toxins were difficult for her body to process.  She seemed to hold onto things, food dyes, additives, “extras” in everything she ate.  Nothing seemed to agree with her.  An almost exclusively organic diet became essential.

We used Epsom Salt baths in the younger years to help clean out what her body couldn’t get rid of.

I learned about biochemisty, and methylation.  I learned about Vitamin B12 and its ability to help her get rid of toxins.

So, over the last few weeks and months, when Meghan’s pain level has gotten progressively higher again, it was time for me to reevaluate.

Looking closely at her diet, there wasn’t much to clean up.

I have Dr. Elice looking closely at her blood. 28 vials this week!

But, it occurred to me that stress – life experiences – could be equally toxic.  So I started to wonder if the stressful situations in our life were causing a decline in Meghan’s overall health.

ichoose

This week we changed churches and schools.

I haven’t heard her laugh like this in months.

There is a spark to her smile, and a hope in her eyes.

Her hip still hurts.  There is a knot in the side.  There are aches and pains – but somehow… she seems just a little less toxic.

Felix is taking the Isagenix – but we have all benefited.

http://meghanleigh8903.isagenix.com/us/en/landing_toxic.html#  (Message me if you want to know more!)