My mom has always loved rainbows. I mean she REALLY loves them. She would take us all outside when we were younger to look at them after a storm. She would sometimes pull the car over so we could see them. I remember always knowing they were special. But, like so many things in life I think I am only starting to “get it” now.
What a June this has been!
There has been rain and more rain. It only started to feel like summer a few days ago. And while I am sure we will all be complaining of the heat soon – it is nice to see some sunshine.
As I walked out of my house to make a quick run to the store tonight there was rain. Lots of it. I went back in for my rain coat. I had to be ready to pack lunch for Meghan as we head to her appointments tomorrow. So, I had little choice.
As I was listening to the all familiar sound of the wipers on the windshield, I found myself looking for the rainbow in the sky. There was sun, there were clouds. There was rain. I knew I would find it if I looked.
I thought about these last – almost 2 years since the Cowden’s diagnosis. I thought about the twists and turns and sleepless nights. The days when I was sure the sun would never shine again. Yet – somehow it did.
I thought of my husband. My strength in tumultuous times. I thought of how he began school 2 years ago this week, setting out for his electrical licensing exam, never knowing three short months later life would be forever altered with mine and Meghan’s diagnoses.
I thought about how the course that was only supposed to take a few months, and the test that should have been in early 2012 ended up being in January of 2013. I thought of him trekking to school two nights a week, and studying every spare moment. I thought of how flat out proud we were as he passed the written exam with ease.
Through tests, surgeries, scans, cancer, agonizing waiting – he persevered.I am not sure I could have kept my focus. But he took it a step further.
Perhaps it was out imminent family health crisis, or maybe his own internal motivation, in June of 2012 he began his journey towards better health on Isagenix.
While continuing in school and under extreme stress, he has managed to lose, and maintain the loss of about 45 pounds.
He took the second and final part of the exam on June 4th. The passing score came in the mail Monday. Now all that stands between him and his Mater Electrician License is some tedious NYC paperwork, and undoubtedly some more fees…
As I looked for the rainbow I couldn’t help but think, that even though they are sometimes hard to see, and even thought the days are sometimes dark and cloudy – they are there. They wonder, the beauty – all perfectly placed to be appreciated. If we look…
I am so proud of my husband. I am so grateful that he is so often the rainbow on that cloudy day.
My mother taught me to look for rainbows. I get it now Mom. I get it.
My husband helps me find them.
I am a lucky girl.
Thyroid sonogram tomorrow – 10 AM.
We’ll be looking to make our own rainbows along the way.
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