hypermobile joints – beatingcowdens

Tomorrow is Meghan’s annual review for her IEP meeting.

It should have been an easy meeting. Continuation of PT and the paraprofessional until her triennial next year.

The Cowden’s Syndrome clearly warrants PT. We already have 2 sessions a week outside, and THEY want her to receive additional services inside the school.

She hurts, (by her own words)

https://beatingcowdens.com/2013/03/03/moving-backwards/ (This is a link to a speech she gave in school)

all the time. Some days she is just able to make the best of it.

Last week we lost 2 days of school (and work.) We saw 5 doctors, including an ER in those 2 days because of severe pain and virtual immobility in the left shoulder. No obvious trauma. Just the life of a 9 year old with Cowden’s Syndrome.

Cowden’s Syndrome can often be accompanied by hypermobile joints, making injury during daily activities much easier.

Cowden’s Syndrome is also a condition of over exaggeration by every body part. The smallest injury warrants a full, and sometimes incapacitating inflammatory reaction.

We manage a lot of things with Celebrex. But it is not a miracle drug.

We can not keep her in a bubble. She is 9 and wants to run and play.

But, that doesn’t mean her PT needs “don’t affect school function.” They do affect it – in so many ways.

So that is my job tomorrow. To get my point across. To speak for my girl.

Mamma bear is almost ready…

To protect baby bear… She WILL get what she NEEDS!

I have said so many times, and through the last year especially, that it’s all about perspective. That is how I get by, and that is how I teach my daughter. The key is having enough perspective in life to understand that in EVERY house, in EVERY street, in EVERY city, in EVERY country, people have “stuff.”

Now its easy to look sometimes and think that “this isn’t fair” or “they have it easy,” but in reality – we just don’t know. We aren’t them. So we live our lives, trying to avoid passing any judgements – and doing our best to get by.

We are acutely aware, especially in these days after the tragedy at Sandy Hook Elementary School, and “SuperStorm Sandy” that tore through our hometown, of how lucky we are,

And yet, even with all that perspective. Sometimes it’s just hard. Sometimes its hard to get up and get going, and press on. Sometimes its hard to deal with the punches life keeps throwing. Sometimes I need to stop and take a breath to avoid the chest pain of my own anxiety. Sometimes that’s just how it is.

So, I remain torn. Torn between the conscious knowledge that so many others are suffering in ways far worse than I could imagine, and this ever-present, sometimes bone crushing fatigue that plagues me as we just try to get by.

If you are still reading then. you will indulge me a few minutes of frustration along the “Cowden’s Syndrome” journey? That is, after all, what brought me here to being with.

Sometimes when life gets as overwhelming as it has been I start to practice avoidance. I duck phone calls and messages. Not because I don’t want people. It’s actually quite the opposite. Its because I fear people will tire of hearing the same old thing. And, really, no one knows what to say. So even if I am comfortable enough to lay it out there, I feel bad for the poor soul now left without a clue as to how to reply.

Three months ago Meghan‘s pediatrician asked me to find her a neurologist to contend with her headaches I am thinking she more likely needs an ENT for her sinuses, but I haven’t found either one. The week of “Sandy” her eye doctor appointment was cancelled. Haven’t rescheduled that one either. Tonight she lays in bed resting her fatigued hypermobile joints. I wonder if she gets that most kids don’t have to spend the night in pain just because they danced in school a bit today.

Last December – this exact week, I was very busy getting the slides from Meghan’s November thyroid biopsy transferred to a prominent cancer hospital for a second look. It took phone call after phone call, but finally they were received by the endocrinologist/oncologist. Just in time for a holiday break. We waited anxiously for confirmation that the biopsy was read correctly and was indeed benign. We were called in for a meeting with the doctor a few days after New Years. The news was better than we had expected. “Precancerous cells.” Come back in 6 months. And so we did. The scan in June got us the same – return in six months. On December 27th we will head back to see if those cells are still “precancerous.” I am fairly sure I am the only one who remembers the timing of last year’s anxiety. That is why I find this year’s timing ironic as well.

So, the car is totaled and gone a few weeks now. The back is improving – often, but not always. The sonogram revealed disconcerting growth with the spleen hamartomas. I trudged through another MRI. I was told to call a surgeon. They requested the CD from the local sonogram. I sent it Fed Ex. It arrived last Thursday.. I called Thursday last week to confirm its arrival. Then I called Tuesday to find out what was the progress. I was told the oncologist and the surgeon had to view it then talk. I think I annoyed the receptionist when I asked if it would be after Christmas. She said no. It would be sooner. So, I have carried my phone like a schoolgirl with a crush. Nope. Tomorrow is Friday. I can almost wager they are away, or on vacation. I just want to know if I am planning for surgery on my spleen. That’s all. Am I planning for surgery? I can wait on the specifics.

But,maybe I can’t wait that long. I guess that all depends on Meghan’s thyroid. If that stays in, then I can pull this off. One more surgery – no big deal. But if she needs surgery too… then things get trickier.

I am NOT looking for a formal plan here. I know how God feels about that. Just some guidance… maybe?

I was back at the hospital that did my hysterectomy tonight for my six month follow-up. Everything looks good. Apparently the hot flashes are right on schedule, and hormonal migranes get me a script for medication. I will see them again in the summer so we can talk about adding bone density test to my list of life long follow-up stuff. It’s all good. I got this.

I think.

Yesterday was “cause day” at our school. I wore Meghan’s necklace and her shirt. I was able to raise a bit of awareness. We have 300 yards of denim ribbon. We are going to do something special for rare disease day in February.