The recovery room is the land of mixed emotions. So grateful to see her on the other side of another surgery, yet so terrifying to see her pulse ox dip as they race to get her on oxygen.

Gutting to watch her screaming in pain until finally a cocktail of pain meds knock her out completely.

She should rest. After squeezing in her GRE from 9:30-11:30 she fired off 6 applications to Physician Assistant programs before catching less than 2 hours sleep.

That sense of urgency is our 24/7.

We left home at 4:30- arrived by 5:30 and was in surgery by 7:30.

Three and a half hours later, we got a decent- yet not perfect report and I sit by her bedside… waiting.

Waiting to see if she’ll breathe without oxygen the way she needs to.

Waiting to see how they’ll manage her pain.

Waiting to map out the road to recovery.

Waiting.

He got the tumor. But with it went some healthy muscle too. He got the tumor, but the SOB had a vascular component too.

He got the tumor… but…

There’s always a but.

For now we sit. And wait. And HOPE for all the best answers to chronically complicated questions.

#beatingcowdens